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    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 nonplussed intro nonplussed 2020/7/12 19:53:39 06:31
    2 Slomo Slowdive Slowdive 2020/7/12 20:00:06 06:44
    3 Lick in Heaven Jessy Lanza www.electronicfresh.com 2020/7/12 20:06:39 04:29
    4 Feel You Julia Holter Have You In My Wilderness 2020/7/12 20:11:01 04:09
    5 Constantly hating (ft Birdman) Young Thug Barter 6 2020/7/12 20:15:03 04:27
    6 Lean 4 Real (Feat. Skepta) Playboi Carti Die Lit 2020/7/12 20:19:23 02:57
    7 I’m Only Sleeping The Beatles Revolver 2020/7/12 20:22:16 03:07
    8 Luxury Vacuum Total Control Laughing At The System 2020/7/12 20:25:11 04:41
    9 A Visit From Drum Liars Drum’s Not Dead 2020/7/12 20:29:44 04:10
    10 Motown Harvey Milk Life… The Best Game In Town 2020/7/12 20:33:54 03:41
    11 Too Many Birds Bill Callahan Sometimes I Wish We Were An Eagle 2020/7/12 20:37:33 05:27
    12 Turquoise Hexagon Sun Boards Of Canada Music Has The Right To Children 2020/7/12 20:42:38 05:08
    13 Marie BLUE GAS Shadows From Nowhere 2020/7/12 20:47:56 04:43
    14 & It Was U (Elite Gymnastics Remix) How To Dress Well BIRP! February 2013 2020/7/12 20:52:32 03:52
    15 Cars And Girls Prefab Sprout From Langley Park To Memphis 2020/7/12 20:56:20 04:23
    16 Farewell Transmission Songs: Ohia The Magnolia Electric Co. (10th Anniversary Deluxe Edition) 2020/7/12 21:00:40 07:22
    17 The Apartment Song Do Make Say Think Goodbye Enemy Airship the Landlord Is Dead 2020/7/12 21:07:58 03:52
    18 Millimillenary Cocteau Twins The Pink Opaque 2020/7/12 21:11:40 03:40
    19 Parking Lot Grouper Grid of Points 2020/7/12 21:15:33 03:23
    20 N.I.T.A. Young Marble Giants Colossal Youth (Deluxe Edition) (Disc 1: Colossal Youth) 2020/7/12 21:18:50 03:31
    21 Arms Around You Arthur Russell Calling Out Of Context 2020/7/12 21:22:23 06:23
    22 I Think There’s Something You Should Know The 1975 Notes On A Conditional Form 2020/7/12 21:28:40 03:56
    23 checking in with the old gang default genders main pop girl 2019 2020/7/12 21:32:31 03:36
    24 Why, Buzzardman, Why Alabaster DePlume To Cy & Lee: Instrumentals Vol. 1 2020/7/12 21:36:04 03:52
    25 Da Pacem Domine Alea Saxophone Quartet Arvo Pärt: Anima 2020/7/12 21:39:52 04:22
    26 George Winston – 07 – Lullaby George Winston Summer 2020/7/12 21:44:06 03:25
    27 Blue Sky And Yellow Sunflower Susumu Yokota Symbol 2020/7/12 21:47:22 03:57
    28 The Present Bedhead Transaction de Novo 2020/7/12 21:51:25 07:00
    29 Ever New Beverly Glenn-Copeland Keyboard Fantasies 2020/7/12 21:58:21 00:00
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    Track List: npr 070520

    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 nonplussed intro 2020/7/5 19:55:24 04:31
    2 Watermark Enya Watermark 2020/7/5 19:59:51 02:26
    3 turn on the summer the rutabega brother the lights don’t work 2020/7/5 20:02:13 12:14
    4 King’s Dead Jay Rock, Kendrick Lamar, Future, James Blake Black Panther The Album Music From & Inspired By 2020/7/5 20:14:29 03:45
    5 Wild Horses Prefab Sprout 1990 – Jordan: The Comeback 2020/7/5 20:18:09 03:44
    6 With Just One Glance You (feat. Scout Larue & Will Epstein) Nicolas Jaar NPR Music’s Favorite New Artists of 2011 2020/7/5 20:22:07 03:24
    7 OMG Autre Ne Veut Autre Ne Veut 2020/7/5 20:25:30 02:23
    8 Arrow Through Me Wings Pure McCartney 2020/7/5 20:27:43 03:38
    9 Please Fall In Love With Me John Martyn Glorious Fool 2020/7/5 20:31:16 06:02
    10 On A Neck, On A Spit Grizzly Bear Yellow House 2020/7/5 20:37:10 05:47
    11 Midnight Women Haunted Leather In Her Golden Room ep 2020/7/5 20:42:50 05:15
    12 Good Girl/Carrots Panda Bear Person Pitch 2020/7/5 20:47:55 08:18
    13 Corporeal Broadcast Tender Buttons 2020/7/5 20:56:04 03:55
    14 Somebody Else The 1975 I Like It When You Sleep, For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware Of It 2020/7/5 20:59:56 05:48
    15 Hounds The Antlers Burst Apart 2020/7/5 21:05:39 05:18
    16 I’ll Not Contain You The Microphones The Glow Pt 2 Reissue 2020/7/5 21:10:59 02:51
    17 Becalmed Brian Eno Another Green World 2020/7/5 21:13:41 03:54
    18 Lovelier Girl Beach House Beach House 2020/7/5 21:17:28 03:03
    19 Boo Pinback Blue Screen Life 2020/7/5 21:20:21 03:59
    20 BRJ Caroline Dark Blue 7” 2020/7/5 21:24:00 04:06
    21 Offshore Early Day Miners Let Us Garlands Bring 2020/7/5 21:27:59 08:10
    22 Meanwhile Shores Coup De Grace 2020/7/5 21:36:06 05:20
    23 I Am Not Willing Moby Grape ’69 (Rem 2007) 2020/7/5 21:41:22 02:59
    24 Mountain of Air Ellen Arkbro For Organ and Brass 2020/7/5 21:44:11 07:26
    25 Separate Machines John Roberts Can Thought Exist Without The Body 2020/7/5 21:51:35 05:27
    26 Almost All of the Time People Skills Former January Ending Through 52 Weeks 2020/7/5 21:57:20 00:00
    27 Ooze Out And Away, Onehow Harold Budd – Elizabeth Fraser – Robin Guthrie – Simon Raymonde Moon And The Melodies 2020/7/5 22:00:29 00:00
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    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 See More Glass Total Control Henge Beat LP 2020/6/21 19:51:04 04:53
    2 nonplussed intro 2020/6/21 19:54:28 06:31
    3 Jumbo’s Protomartyr No Passion All Technique 2020/6/21 20:05:19 04:28
    4 Bonny (2007 Remastered Version) Prefab Sprout Steve McQueen (version définitive) 2020/6/21 20:09:37 03:46
    5 Sketch for Summer The Durutti Column The Return of the Durutti Column 2020/6/21 20:13:11 01:01
    6 Death Viet Cong Viet Cong 2020/6/21 20:16:49 11:16
    7 Fetch the Bolt Cutters Fiona Apple Fetch the Bolt Cutters 2020/6/21 20:28:04 04:58
    8 Blue Beach – Welcome to Your Beach Steve Hiett Down on the Road by the Beach 2020/6/21 20:33:03 04:16
    9 Echo Lady Wet Hair In Vogue Spirit 2020/6/21 20:37:09 04:35
    10 It Means I Love You Jessy Lanza Oh No 2020/6/21 20:41:43 03:45
    11 Maybe Kettenkarussel 2018 2020/6/21 20:45:41 06:11
    12 Where is Home? Traumprinz Planet Giegling Tour EP 2020/6/21 20:50:56 05:53
    13 In Your Mirror Leafar Legov Mirror 2020/6/21 20:55:28 06:12
    14 dairyday4 Space Afrika hybtwibt? 2020/6/21 21:01:31 01:44
    15 From Gardens Where We Feel Secure Virginia Astley From Gardens Where We Feel Secure 2020/6/21 21:02:59 03:58
    16 Oil of Angels Cocteau Twins Four-Calendar Cafe 2020/6/21 21:07:07 04:39
    17 Yeah I Know The 1975 Notes On A Conditional Form 2020/6/21 21:11:33 04:13
    18 Phoebe The Cat’s Miaow The Long Goodbye: Bliss Out v.14 2020/6/21 21:15:38 02:35
    19 Like A Child Junior Boys So This Is Goodbye (Special Edition) (CD1) 2020/6/21 21:18:01 06:07
    20 Burning Part of Me The Sound Heads and Hearts 2020/6/21 21:24:00 03:27
    21 Guy’s Eyes Animal Collective Merriweather Post Pavilion 2020/6/21 21:27:20 04:29
    22 When You Feel the Mess Starflyer 59 Gold (2001 Reissue) 2020/6/21 21:31:40 05:49
    23 Vision of Serenity Tom Kazas Deliquescence 2020/6/21 21:37:25 03:17
    24 15 Once – Joanna 2020/6/21 21:40:37 03:12
    25 Platypus Corridor Andrew Tuttle Alexandra 2020/6/21 21:43:44 03:36
    26 Love’s Easy Tears Cocteau Twins Lullabies to Violaine / Disc 2 2020/6/21 21:47:17 03:35
    27 Untitled Vanessa Amara You’re Welcome Here 2020/6/21 21:50:44 03:34
    28 Kensington Blues Jack Rose Kensington Blues 2020/6/21 21:54:15 00:00
    29 I Just Wasn’t Made For These Times The Beach Boys Pet Sounds 2020/6/21 21:57:44 00:00
  • nonplussed radio 061420

    DEMAND JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR

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    Track List: npr 061420

    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 Atoms Song Teebs feat. Thomas Stankiewicz Anicca 2020/6/14 19:48:12 04:58
    2 nonplussed intro 2020/6/14 19:48:57 07:07
    3 The Spangle Maker Cocteau Twins The Pink Opaque 2020/6/14 20:05:37 04:39
    4 What’s It Gonna Be? (feat. Janet) Busta Rhymes Turn It Up! The Very Best Of [by Hillside] 2020/6/14 20:10:11 05:23
    5 Flesh War Total Control Typical System 2020/6/14 20:15:32 04:41
    6 Can You Play Drums? Starflyer 59 Leave Here A Stranger 2020/6/14 20:20:10 02:56
    7 Studie Teebs feat. Panda Bear Anicca 2020/6/14 20:23:03 03:37
    8 Echo Boomed upsammy Zoom 2020/6/14 20:26:46 03:16
    9 Solitary Flight Theo Parrish RA Poll Top 100 Tracks 2000-2009 2020/6/14 20:29:52 05:03
    10 The Wires Are Down The Blue Nile Hats (Deluxe Version) 2020/6/14 20:34:52 05:20
    11 A Walk Across The Rooftops The Blue Nile A Walk Across The Rooftops 2020/6/14 20:40:00 04:27
    12 Sky’s The Limit (Feat. 112) [2014 Remastered Ver.) Notorious B.I.G Life After Death (Remastered Edition) 2020/6/14 20:44:23 04:11
    13 Late Medhane Cold Water 2020/6/14 20:48:32 02:05
    14 Drum Gets A Glimpse Liars Drum’s Not Dead 2020/6/14 20:50:23 04:03
    15 Uncomfortably Numb (feat. Hayley Williams) American Football American Football (LP3) 2020/6/14 20:54:23 04:10
    16 Dendron The Hotelier Home, Like Noplace Is There 2020/6/14 20:58:29 05:01
    17 Botticelli Lindsay Cooper An Angel on the Bridge 2020/6/14 21:03:24 02:20
    18 2 Bad (Metatron’s What If Madness Is Our Only Relief Mix) Traumprinz 2 The Sky 2020/6/14 21:05:42 07:01
    19 Mining for Heart The Sound Heads and Hearts 2020/6/14 21:12:40 02:45
    20 Over Again Russian Tsarlag Gel Stations Past 2020/6/14 21:15:21 03:19
    21 Fixation The KVB Fixation / White Walls 2020/6/14 21:18:37 03:15
    22 Choke Soft Kill Choke 2020/6/14 21:21:45 05:37
    23 Fever Dream Death Bells Death Bells 2020/6/14 21:27:16 04:29
    24 Sun At 5 In 4161 Andrew Tuttle Alexandra 2020/6/14 21:31:41 05:03
    25 Another Thing Homeshake Helium 2020/6/14 21:36:41 02:51
    26 Hiraeth Lone Levitate 2020/6/14 21:39:30 03:47
    27 Laser Beam Low Things We Lost In the Fire 2020/6/14 21:43:21 02:55
    28 Evangeline Cocteau Twins Four-Calendar Cafe 2020/6/14 21:46:09 04:32
    29 Jackrabbits Joanna Newsom Have One On Me 2020/6/14 21:50:31 04:23
    30 In Tangled Water Tom James Scott Mine Is The Heron 2020/6/14 21:54:42 03:10
    31 Prospector’s Quartet Jonny Greenwood There Will Be Blood 2020/6/14 21:57:40 00:00
    32 Pur Cocteau Twins Four-Calendar Cafe 2020/6/14 22:00:34 00:00
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    ALL BLACK

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    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 Jane Doe from LA speaks truth and thanks angels amid 2020 US Racial Justice Protests 2020/5/31 20:01:23 06:22
    2 Claire M Singer: Rionnag a Tuath Various Artists Touch Isolation 2020/5/31 20:02:07 06:23
    3 Close Your Eyes (And Count To Fuck) Killer Mike & El-P Run The Jewels 2 2020/5/31 20:08:29 03:54
    4 We The People…. A Tribe Called Quest We Got It From Here… Thank You 4 Your Service 2020/5/31 20:12:23 02:52
    5 Cuttooth Radiohead Amnesiac [Parlophone 97105 2 DLX] 2020/5/31 20:14:52 05:23
    6 All Falls Down featuring Syleena Johnson Kanye West The College Dropout 2020/5/31 20:20:17 02:35
    7 Love It If We Made It The 1975 A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships 2020/5/31 20:22:37 04:13
    8 Rip It Up Orange Juice Rip It Up 2020/5/31 20:26:45 03:49
    9 Muted Shifting of Space Big Brave A Gaze Among Them 2020/5/31 20:30:34 08:35
    10 Cranes in the Sky Solange A Seat at the Table ©2016 Columbia 2020/5/31 20:39:07 04:11
    11 Licking An Orchid Yves Tumor Safe In The Hands of Love 2020/5/31 20:43:07 04:38
    12 Lesson No. 1 for Electric Guitar Glenn Branca Lesson No. 1 2020/5/31 20:47:47 08:10
    13 ‘We are witnessing America as a failed social experiment’ – Dr Cornell West Full CNN Segment 2020/5/31 20:48:16 06:59
    14 Suicide Demo for Kara Walker Destroyer Kaputt 2020/5/31 20:55:55 08:22
    15 protests protests 2020/5/31 21:02:29 05:24
    16 lost DJ Healer lost lovesongs 2020/5/31 21:04:24 05:37
    17 Soon Low Secret Name 2020/5/31 21:09:57 05:13
    18 Over the Hillside The Blue Nile Hats 2020/5/31 21:15:07 05:04
    19 I can’t escape myself The Sound Jeopardy 2020/5/31 21:20:03 03:46
    20 History Lesson Nicolas Jaar Sirens (Deluxe Edition) 2020/5/31 21:23:46 03:44
    21 One Most Memorable Sonna Smile and the World Smiles With You 2020/5/31 21:27:25 06:36
    22 Saku Susumu Yokota Sakura 2020/5/31 21:33:34 03:54
    23 After the Flood Talk Talk Laughing Stock 2020/5/31 21:37:16 09:09
    24 just as the night was Theodore Cole Schafe just as the night was 2020/5/31 21:46:12 00:00
    25 The Triumph Of Our Tired Eyes A Silver Mt. Zion Born Into Trouble As The Sparks Fly Upward 2020/5/31 21:54:05 00:00
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    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 nonplussed intro 2020/5/24 19:55:42 04:46
    2 Palo Alto (Remastered) Radiohead OK Computer OKNOTOK 1997 2017 2020/5/24 20:00:31 03:46
    3 Collapsing At Your Doorstep Air France No Way Down 2020/5/24 20:04:01 04:12
    4 01 Quiet Village – Victoria’s Secret Quiet Village Silent Movie 2020/5/24 20:08:01 03:23
    5 Tonight (I Wish I Was Your Boy) The 1975 Notes On A Conditional Form 2020/5/24 20:11:13 04:07
    6 Origin Studio West Coast 2020/5/24 20:15:13 05:18
    7 All Day Long New Order Brotherhood 2020/5/24 20:20:24 04:43
    8 Baby Baby Amy Grant Greatest Hits 1986-2004 [Disc 1] 2020/5/24 20:25:04 03:45
    9 Casino Café Yonatan Gat Director 2020/5/24 20:28:40 02:10
    10 Pale Fire Dead Leaf Echo Pale Fire 2020/5/24 20:30:41 06:58
    11 All I Need Clams Casino Instrumental Relics 2020/5/24 20:37:28 03:38
    12 Unison Bjork Vespertine 2020/5/24 20:40:57 06:06
    13 A Little Lost Arthur Russell Another Thought 2020/5/24 20:46:59 03:18
    14 All I Wanna Do The Beach Boys Sunflower 2020/5/24 20:50:12 02:33
    15 Worry Wort Radiohead Amnesiac [Parlophone 97105 2 DLX] 2020/5/24 20:52:37 04:38
    16 We Own the Sky M83 Saturdays = Youth 2020/5/24 20:57:13 05:03
    17 Keith Wilson Tanner 69 2020/5/24 21:02:07 05:11
    18 Fall From A Height The Honeydrips Here Comes The Future 2020/5/24 21:07:10 02:35
    19 Candy Girl Trailer Trash Tracys Ester 2020/5/24 21:09:42 04:04
    20 Jim Cain Bill Callahan Sometimes I Wish We Were An Eagle 2020/5/24 21:13:38 04:39
    21 House of Woodcock Jonny Greenwood Phantom Thread 2020/5/24 21:18:09 03:53
    22 Don’t Have To Be So Sad Yo La Tengo Summer Sun 2020/5/24 21:21:57 05:50
    23 Bay of Pigs (Detail) Destroyer Kaputt 2020/5/24 21:27:43 11:17
    24 Into the Ether Northern Picture Library Alaska 2020/5/24 21:38:53 04:02
    25 Balmy Night Department of Eagles In Ear Park 2020/5/24 21:42:51 02:53
    26 The Horse Has Run Aquarelle Leave Corners 2020/5/24 21:45:14 05:57
    27 A Kite of Night Shugo Tokumaru Night Piece 2020/5/24 21:51:07 02:21
    28 Bagsy Not In Net The 1975 Notes On A Conditional Form 2020/5/24 21:53:22 00:00
    29 Surf’s Up The Beach Boys Surf’s Up 2020/5/24 21:55:48 00:00
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    Num. Title Artist Release Start Time Duration
    1 nonplussed intro 2020/5/17 19:54:26 06:31
    2 Stereo Music for Yamaha Disklavier Prototype, Electric Guitar and C Keith Fullerton Whitman Multiples 2020/5/17 20:00:55 05:51
    3 connel calls marianne processed 2020/5/17 20:03:51 01:59
    4 Please Set Me Free Sean Nicholas Savage Bermuda Waterfall 2020/5/17 20:06:27 03:47
    5 Never Heated Suzanne Kraft Talk From Home 2020/5/17 20:10:11 05:51
    6 Broke Modest Mouse Building Nothing Out of Something 2020/5/17 20:15:44 03:19
    7 Lotuseter Haron Wandelaar 2020/5/17 20:19:01 04:42
    8 つづき (The Next Verse) Hallelujahs Niku Wo Kuraite Chikai Wo Tateyo (肉を喰らひて誓ひをたてよ) 2020/5/17 20:23:28 04:54
    9 Heavy Metal Cindy Lee What’s Tonight To Eternity 2020/5/17 20:28:15 03:57
    10 Chinatown Do Make Say Think & Yet & Yet 2020/5/17 20:31:59 05:10
    11 protection spell DJ Healer planet lonely 2020/5/17 20:36:49 08:21
    12 So Sad Fields of Industry Two Dogs, A Television 2020/5/17 20:45:04 03:30
    13 ナイトクルージング FISHMANS ‘98.12.28男達の別れ [Disc 1] 2020/5/17 20:48:31 06:24
    14 Futura Free Frank Ocean Blonde 2020/5/17 20:54:50 04:47
    15 New Hell Greet Death New Hell 2020/5/17 20:59:36 09:47
    16 Sunflower Low Things We Lost In the Fire 2020/5/17 21:09:15 04:36
    17 Raver Burial Untrue 2020/5/17 21:13:37 04:04
    18 Cherry-Coloured Funk Cocteau Twins Otherness 2020/5/17 21:16:52 05:40
    19 pillow Fiona Dickinson lp 2 unmastered 2020/5/17 21:21:54 05:15
    20 Towers Grouper The Man Who Died in His Boat 2020/5/17 21:27:03 05:18
    21 Damage Yo La Tengo I Can Hear The Heart Beating As One 2020/5/17 21:32:03 04:29
    22 Floating Julee Cruise Floating Into The Night 2020/5/17 21:36:15 04:51
    23 Cantus in Memory of Benjamin Britten Arvo Pärt Tabula Rasa 2020/5/17 21:40:40 04:53
    24 Brass Logic Aquarelle Leave Corners 2020/5/17 21:45:26 06:55
    25 Cloudbank Julianna Barwick Florine 2020/5/17 21:51:57 04:10
    26 Limerence Yves Tumor [CO] Mono No Aware 2020/5/17 21:55:58 00:00
    27 Built, Then Burnt (Hurrah! Hurrah!) A Silver Mt. Zion Born Into Trouble As The Sparks Fly Upward 2020/5/17 22:00:15 00:00

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    Num.

    Title

    Artist

    Release

    Start Time

    Duration

    1

    Vorspiel

    Richard Wagner, Georg Solti

    Das Rheingold – Scenes 1 & 2

    2020/5/10 18:25:03

    07:29

    2

    Slow

    My Bloody Valentine

    You Made Me Realise

    2020/5/10 18:30:34

    03:29

    3

    Hello stranger

    Julia Holter

    Loud City Song

    2020/5/10 20:07:30

    06:17

    4

    Liquid Jesus

    Wet Hair

    In Vogue Spirit

    2020/5/10 20:13:32

    08:06

    5

    Legacy

    Enjoy

    Legacy

    2020/5/10 20:21:29

    03:49

    6

    Some Things Never Die

    Sean Nicholas Savage

    Bermuda Waterfall

    2020/5/10 20:25:12

    03:55

    7

    I Go To Sleep

    Anika

    Anika EP

    2020/5/10 20:29:04

    03:22

    8

    The Piano in the Bathtub

    Department of Eagles

    The Cold Nose

    2020/5/10 20:32:19

    04:15

    9

    Absent Friend

    Bark Psychosis

    Hex

    2020/5/10 20:36:26

    08:04

    10

    Bergensbanen

    caroline

    Bergensbanen

    2020/5/10 20:44:04

    12:32

    11

    Power and Possession

    Cindy Lee

    Act of Tenderness

    2020/5/10 20:56:33

    03:06

    12

    Glacial Wave

    Noveller

    Glacial Glow

    2020/5/10 20:59:33

    05:52

    13

    Outer Inner & Secret

    Do Make Say Think

    Winter Hymn Country Hymn Secret Hymn

    2020/5/10 21:05:34

    10:13

    14

    Sleep

    This Heat

    Deceit

    2020/5/10 21:15:40

    02:14

    15

    Sleepwalk (Remastered 2010)

    Santo & Johnny

    Sleepwalk (Remastered 2010) – Single

    2020/5/10 21:17:52

    02:22

    16

    One Shot Juanita

    Starflyer 59

    Gold (2001 Reissue)

    2020/5/10 21:20:06

    04:38

    17

    voci del vento (excerpt 1)

    Claire M. Singer & Chris Watson

    organ reframed

    2020/5/10 21:24:19

    04:37

    18

    voci del vento (excerpt 2)

    Claire M. Singer & CHris Watson

    organ reframed

    2020/5/10 21:28:39

    06:50

    19

    Finale

    Twi The Humble Feather

    Music For Spaceships And Forests

    2020/5/10 21:35:26

    02:49

    20

    Late Night

    This Mortal Coil

    Blood

    2020/5/10 21:38:12

    03:03

    21

    Murmurs

    Hundred Waters

    The Moon Rang Like A Bell

    2020/5/10 21:41:12

    03:30

    22

    Hold the Way

    Grouper

    Roy Montgomery / Grouper

    2020/5/10 21:44:38

    04:02

    23

    Goodbye Lenin !

    Yann Tiersen

    Goodbye Lenin !

    2020/5/10 21:48:26

    04:56

    24

    Set Adrift

    Windy & Carl

    Depths

    2020/5/10 21:53:13

    06:34

    25

    How To Disappear Completely (BBC Radio One 15-11-00)

    Radiohead

    Kid A [Parlophone 97107 2 DLX]

    2020/5/10 21:59:44

    00:00

     

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    Num. Title Artist Release Time Start Time
    1 East to West Yonatan Gat Director 05:09 2020/5/3 19:23:41
    2 Gathering Dust Modern English Facing the Other Way (Volume One: 1980-1989) 04:23 2020/5/3 20:05:36
    3 Desire Ought Room Inside the World 05:20 2020/5/3 20:09:38
    4 Corridor of Dream Cleaners From Venus Midnight Cleaners 05:11 2020/5/3 20:14:31
    5 Love My Way The Psychedelic Furs Forever Now [Bonus Tracks] 03:35 2020/5/3 20:19:41
    6 Girls Takagi Masakatsu Coieda 04:37 2020/5/3 20:23:04
    7 All the Time Starflyer 59 The Fashion Focus 03:17 2020/5/3 20:27:32
    8 Glow (V079) Foxes In Fiction Ontario Gothic 05:18 2020/5/3 20:30:32
    9 Backyards Broken Social Scene Bee Hives 08:15 2020/5/3 20:35:38
    10 Golden Hours Brian Eno Another Green World 04:01 2020/5/3 20:40:41
    11 Solar System The Microphones Mount Eerie 03:39 2020/5/3 20:44:24
    12 Universes Federico Albanese The Twelve (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) 02:54 2020/5/3 20:47:36
    13 PPP Beach House Depression Cherry 06:09 2020/5/3 20:50:20
    14 I Will Surround You Stars of the Lid Avec Laudenum 10:26 2020/5/3 20:55:55
    15 Angelo Badalamenti explains how he wrote Laura Palmer’s Theme 04:28 2020/5/3 20:57:19
    16 The Moment Tor Lundvall A Dark Place 04:47 2020/5/3 21:00:37
    17 To Hold You, Drum Liars Drum’s Not Dead 04:05 2020/5/3 21:04:50
    18 Holding Pattern Big Brave A Gaze Among Them 09:42 2020/5/3 21:08:36
    19 Noon Gareth Dickson Quite A Way Away 04:39 2020/5/3 21:17:31
    20 Tempest Low Double Negative 04:50 2020/5/3 21:22:01
    21 Love Mica Levi Under the Skin 05:11 2020/5/3 21:26:46
    22 Never Cursed Jonny Greenwood Phantom Thread 03:46 2020/5/3 21:31:46
    23 [untitled] Nuno Canavarro Plux Quba 02:44 2020/5/3 21:35:49
    24 Ekkehard Ehlers Plays John Cassavetes (Pt. 2) Ekkehard Ehlers Plays 09:58 2020/5/3 21:37:47
    25 Stalled Boson Olan Mill Paths 08:13 2020/5/3 21:40:05
    26 Memory Charalambides Bored Fortress 04:00 2020/5/3 21:44:49
    27 The Horse Has Run Aquarelle Leave Corners 05:58 2020/5/3 21:48:26
    28 Ondanata 500mg Apocatastisis 05:11 2020/5/3 21:54:32
  • nonplussed radio 042620
    Track List npr 042620

    Track List: npr 042620

    Num. Title Artist Time Release Start Time Duration
    1 A Little Longing Goes Away The Books 03:32 Lost and Safe 2020/4/26 20:00:28 03:31
    2 The Helicopter Spies Swell Maps 04:19 Swell Maps in ”Jane from Occupied Europe” 2020/4/26 20:03:57 04:18
    3 The Hearttaker Starflyer 59 04:07 Americana 2020/4/26 20:07:57 04:00
    4 Otis The Durutti Column 04:18 Vini Reilly 2020/4/26 20:11:49 03:46
    5 Nowhere Near Yo La Tengo 06:05 Painful 2020/4/26 20:15:30 05:52
    6 Drain You Nirvana 03:44 Nevermind 2020/4/26 20:21:18 03:44
    7 Song to the Siren This Mortal Coil 03:32 It’ll End In Tears 2020/4/26 20:24:54 03:31
    8 I Talk To The Wind (2019 Stereo Mix) King Crimson 06:03 In The Court Of The Crimson King (50Th Anniversary) CD1 2020/4/26 20:28:19 05:52
    9 The Downtown Lights The Blue Nile 06:32 Hats 2020/4/26 20:34:08 06:31
    10 How To Draw / Petrichor The 1975 05:50 A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships 2020/4/26 20:40:16 05:25
    11 We Sell Soul Spacemen 3 04:57 Forged Prescriptions 2020/4/26 20:45:32 04:49
    12 cast a spell on you DJ Healer 04:56 lost lovesongs 2020/4/26 20:50:14 04:55
    13 It’s Getting Late in the Evening Talk Talk 05:46 Besides 2020/4/26 20:55:02 05:40
    14 Falling Into Your Eyes Thomas Fehlmann 04:09 Gute Luft 2020/4/26 21:00:27 04:05
    15 The Flat Jóhann Jóhannsson 03:28 And in the endless pause there came the sound of bees 2020/4/26 21:04:26 03:27
    16 How Do I Know Akron/Family 02:31 Akron/Family 2020/4/26 21:07:45 02:25
    17 Reflector Bing & Ruth 07:21 Tomorrow Was the Golden Age 2020/4/26 21:10:06 04:03
    18 Half-Gifts Cocteau Twins 04:16 Twinlights 2020/4/26 21:14:03 04:16
    19 No Relief Fields of Industry 05:18 Fields of Industry 2020/4/26 21:18:11 05:18
    20 Headache Grouper 05:05 Paradise Valley 2020/4/26 21:23:52 04:52
    21 The Manmaipo Ben Bertrand 04:37 Manes 2020/4/26 21:28:29 03:54
    22 Morpheus’ Arms Jerkcurb 03:16 Air Con Eden 2020/4/26 21:31:58 03:15
    23 Transient Life In Twilight James Blackshaw 11:38 O True Believers 2020/4/26 21:35:01 06:36
    24 You and Your Sister This Mortal Coil 03:15 Blood 2020/4/26 21:41:34 03:14
    25 Farewell Polmo Polpo 05:05 Like Hearts Swelling 2020/4/26 21:44:43 05:05
    26 Requiem String Melody Stars of the Lid 02:47 Carte-De-Visite 2020/4/26 21:49:58 00:00
    27 Exile John T. Gast 07:43 Exile 2020/4/26 21:52:29 00:00
  • nonplussed radio 041920
    Track List npr 041920

    Track List: npr 041920

    Num.TitleArtistTimeReleaseStart TimeDuration
    1Broken Harbors, Part 2Stars of the Lid06:48The Tired Sounds of Stars of the Lid2020/4/19 20:00:2004:17
    2intro02:282020/4/19 20:01:2002:32
    3DrumsetFiona Apple02:41Fetch the Bolt Cutters2020/4/19 20:04:3202:40
    4Somebodies BabyTapes02:26Workshop 212020/4/19 20:07:0902:25
    5RandomlyLucki02:09Days B4 III2020/4/19 20:09:2801:59
    6Brittle Head GirlLoop04:31The World In Your Eyes (Reissue)2020/4/19 20:11:1304:29
    7Oh BabyMicachu and the Shapes03:28Good Sad Happy Bad2020/4/19 20:15:3403:27
    8Feel So Sad [Glides and Chimes]Spiritualized06:34The Complete Works Volume One2020/4/19 20:18:4806:23
    9To Say That is EasyYves Jarvis04:15The Same But By Different Means2020/4/19 20:25:1403:49
    10ReitschuleDo Make Say Think09:18& Yet & Yet2020/4/19 20:28:4209:17
    11Harf GreenAndras05:18Joyful2020/4/19 20:37:3905:12
    12Tell Me If You Still CareSOS Band07:13Tell Me If You Still Care2020/4/19 20:41:1606:57
    13Oh How I Miss YouBroadcast01:18Haha Sound2020/4/19 20:49:2001:17
    14I Lost Something in the HillsSibylle Baier03:29Colour Green2020/4/19 20:50:3503:28
    15ShameJoshua Barton & The Brothers & Sisters03:403-Way Singles Club, Volume One2020/4/19 20:53:5903:39
    16BebeyTheophilus London03:51Bebey2020/4/19 20:57:4303:51
    17Cucurrucú PalomaCaetano Veloso04:02The Best of Caetano Veloso2020/4/19 21:01:3203:59
    18Homesick 1972 Gibson from Los AngelesVashti Bunyan01:02Visionaire 53 Sound (Sides 1-5)2020/4/19 21:05:2701:01
    19The SlipLeafar Legov07:54Mirror v22020/4/19 21:06:2306:53
    20Piano ThemeKhotin05:30Rhythms Of The Pacific Volume 4.2020/4/19 21:11:3403:26
    21Soon-To-Be Innocent Fun / Let’s SeeArthur Russell09:36World of Echo2020/4/19 21:14:5603:56
    22MorellaSir Richard Bishop04:49Salvador Kali2020/4/19 21:18:4904:51
    2350 Flowernthng05:09Hypnotherapy2020/4/19 21:24:0805:07
    24Heart of ChambersBeach House04:26Devotion2020/4/19 21:29:0804:25
    25Дом (с чердаком)Dima Pantyushin and Sasha Lipsky04:392020/4/19 21:33:3304:39
    26AloneLeafar Legov07:0320192020/4/19 21:37:2803:59
    27NocturneAnn Margaret Hogan04:14Honeysuckle Burials2020/4/19 21:41:2404:13
    28Golden HairSlowdive04:04Just for a Day2020/4/19 21:45:3304:04
    29Shine A LightSpiritualized07:18Lazer Guided Melodies2020/4/19 21:49:2007:17
    30PillowAdem05:05Homesongs2020/4/19 21:56:3000:00
    31botched outro2020/4/19 22:01:4600:00

  • nonplussed radio 4.12.20

    Track List: npr041220

    Num.

    Title

    Artist

    Time

    Track

    Release

    Label

    Start Time

    Duration

    1

    Bluebird of Happiness

    Mojave 3

    09:16

    1

    Spoon and Rafter

    2020/4/12 20:00:37

    09:16

    2

    Isolation

    Joy Division

    02:54

    2

    Closer (Factory Records UK)

    2020/4/12 20:09:45

    02:53

    3

    Leb’ Wohl

    Neu!

    08:52

    3

    Neu! ’75

    2020/4/12 20:12:27

    04:46

    4

    You’re Gonna Hate What You’ve Done

    Greet Death

    08:59

    4

    New Hell

    2020/4/12 20:17:07

    08:08

    5

    LOVE REMAINS

    Cindy Lee

    03:27

    4

    Cat O’ Nine Tails

    2020/4/12 20:25:04

    03:26

    6

    heart emoji xo

    default genders

    02:29

    8

    main pop girl 2019

    2020/4/12 20:28:23

    02:28

    7

    Pure Meditation

    Electric Egypt

    05:09

    2

    Impressions Of The Inexpressible Invisible

    2020/4/12 20:30:52

    04:38

    8

    Shadows From Nowhere

    BLUE GAS

    05:34

    1

    Shadows From Nowhere

    Best Italy

    2020/4/12 20:33:36

    06:50

    9

    ATL

    Frank Ocean

    04:00

    18

    The Endless Sessions

    2020/4/12 20:40:15

    03:59

    10

    Oh Honey

    Delegation

    05:43

    9

    The Promise Of Love (2014 Remastered)

    2020/4/12 20:44:17

    05:42

    11

    Days In The Trees – Reich

    No-Man

    02:36

    8

    Lovesighs – An Entertainment

    2020/4/12 20:49:34

    02:35

    12

    Blue Skied an‘ Clear

    Slowdive

    06:54

    8

    Pygmalion

    2020/4/12 20:51:58

    06:27

    13

    Beguiling The Hours

    Flaming Tunes

    04:16

    2

    Flaming Tunes

    2020/4/12 20:58:19

    03:47

    14

    The Perfect Kiss

    New Order

    04:51

    2

    Low-Life

    2020/4/12 21:01:53

    04:50

    15

    Plainsong

    Seefeel

    07:04

    1

    Pure, impure

    2020/4/12 21:05:46

    05:21

    16

    We Fly High

    Elite Gymnastics

    03:44

    1

    REAL FRIENDS

    2020/4/12 21:07:07

    05:56

    17

    Meridian

    Ben Bondy

    03:27

    3

    Aphelion Lash

    2020/4/12 21:13:32

    03:25

    18

    April 12

    Dan Fisher

    05:15

    12

    Quarantine Dream

    2020/4/12 21:14:48

    04:27

    19

    Another World

    Antony and the Johnsons

    04:00

    6

    The Crying Light

    2020/4/12 21:19:28

    04:00

    20

    The Angel Pool

    The Autumns

    07:41

    7

    The Angel Pool

    2020/4/12 21:23:16

    00:10

    21

    You Never Wanted Me

    Jackson C. Frank

    03:12

    10

    Jackson C. Frank

    2020/4/12 21:23:59

    03:10

    22

    rider

    Takeshi Nishimoto

    04:07

    2

    Monologue

    2020/4/12 21:27:07

    04:04

    23

    GREEN

    Hiroshi Yoshimura

    05:15

    5

    Green

    2020/4/12 21:31:09

    02:17

    24

    Glass in Lullabies

    The Autumns

    08:44

    9

    The Angel Pool

    2020/4/12 21:33:08

    08:28

    25

    Choices

    LOL Beslutning

    03:54

    12

    Destina & Destine

    2020/4/12 21:41:27

    03:54

    26

    All Is Full of Love

    Björk

    04:34

    10

    Homogenic

    2020/4/12 21:46:14

    04:33

    27

    In Held Company

    Raum

    09:04

    4

    Event of Your Leaving

    2020/4/12 21:50:29

    09:01

    28

    Living room

    Grouper

    02:23

    11

    The Man Who Died in His Boat

    Kranky

    2020/4/12 21:59:28

    00:00

     

  • 1.25.20

    best of 2019 (lol)

    so i started making this list in the fall i’m p sure and have been terrible about finishing it. i knew i wanted to share my favs from 2019, but i didn’t know the best way: a spotify playlist? a numbered list? include write-ups of some records on the list? all the records? none of em?

    so i decided to just fuckin go for it and include a little blurb for each entry on the list. the order is approximate and mostly meaningless. all these albums are great and i don’t have the energy at age 31 to nitpick about how they all compare. they’re all great and well worth your time.

    john roberts – can thought exist without the body?

    bandcamp /// spotify

    this album came completely out of nowhere. i sorta kinda barely remember john roberts releasing a techno record in 2010 that got some buzz, but i couldn’t tell ya what it was called or what it sounded like. i heard about this album by reading a very middle of the road review from resident advisor that made it sound like something i would be into. sure enough, i loved it. and still love it. it’s an ambient record with movement, built from a beautiful palette of piano, strings, synths and trumpet. just incredibly sweet, pleasant, breezy ambient that i kept returning to over and over again.

    american football – lp 3

    bandcamp /// spotify

    this album’s place on this list is confounding to me. i’ve always liked american football, ever since i was like 14 or some shit. but i never loved american football (sorry dan!) then i listened to this record and was totally smitten. it sounds like american football, but it more sounds like current-era slowdive or something. very pretty, sad and surprisingly catchy: “uncomfortably numb,” which features hayley williams from paramore, is a perfect pop song. best song of 2019 imo.   

    default genders – main pop girl 2019

    bandcamp

    default genders is the solo project of jaime brooks (ex-elite gymnastics, ex-partner of grimes lol). while elite gymnastics received some blog hype for their breakbeat-heavy electronic pop in the first part of the decade, i’m willing to bet they slipped under most folks’ radars. anyway, jaime dropped a fantastic record in 2014 called magical pessimism 2014 that i got super obsessed with. for a long time, it appeared jaime had basically stopped making music: a handful of demos cropped up on her soundcloud stream over the course of like 3-4 years, then silence. then out of nowhere she announced this thing and released it like a week later. it features a lot of the hallmarks of jaime’s music to date: racing breakbeats, pitched vocals, brilliant samples, and lyrical themes of queerness, poverty, addiction/drug use, and relationships. however, this album is a big step forward for jaime in terms of songwriting ability. characters from her past records return on here, and new ones are introduced; the heartbreaking millennial romance of “checking in with the old gang” feels especially alive and relatable. jaime’s work is bright, bold, beautiful and moving, and it pulls from such a wide range of influences that most folks are bound to find something to love in all these songs.

    big brave – a gaze among them

    bandcamp /// spotify

    speaking of big steps forward, this latest record from canadian droners big brave sees the band simultaneously tighten up AND expand their sound. how does that happen? is that possible? why am i here? who are you? recorded at machines with magnets, the same studio as one of my very favs from last year (you won’t get what you want by daughters), the record sounds incredibly raw and in your face. the drums are pushed very high in the mix and the guitars are earth-leveling. i legitimately think this record fucked up my car stereo from playing it too loud with the windows down this summer. it’s just kinda impossible to hear a song like “holding pattern” and not just keep turning it up louder and louder. robin wattie deserves to be recognized as one of the great women in rock right now. seeing her small figure on stage, just belting out these incredibly powerful songs about femininity and humanity, is one of the most striking and moving things. fortunately, that power and strength translate brilliantly from the stage to tape.

    barker – utility

    bandcamp /// spotify

    i’m pretty sure every review of this album just says the same thing: gorgeous techno with the drums taken out. it’s a very accurate descriptor of this record but is also a very reductive reading imo. on utility, barker has created an entire universe that’s as strange and brightly colored as the hallucinatory cover art. i’ll admit, it took me kinda a long time to get into this record fully, but i’m glad i kept coming back to it. the brilliance of barker’s compositions doesn’t reveal itself quickly. however, the closing track “die-hards of the darwinian order” displays that brilliance prominently, resulting in a clanging, string-hewn, slowburning banger that makes nine minutes feel like four. plus it’s got drums!  

    greet death – new hell

    bandcamp /// spotify

    so cool story: there was this heavy shoegaze band called pines that stepdad played with at hell’s half mile festival in bay city in 2014. i was super into them and tried to get coffin problem to play a show with them, but it never happened. flash forward to a couple years ago and pines, whom hail from flint, changed their name to greet death and kinda took off. jump to this year and they appear to have taken off .2 further. jk but this record is really good. the two best songs are the longest: “do you feel nothing?” and “new hell.” both found me right when i really needed them and i ended up playing the rest of the record a whole bunch too. i still wish coffin problem would play a fucking show with them. 

    nivhek – after its own death/walking in a spiral towards the house

    bandcamp /// spotify

    this one was a pleasant surprise. nivhek is a new project from liz harris a.k.a. grouper aka my favorite ever. under this alias, liz takes the omnipresent muddy ambience found in her work as grouper and makes it the focal point. the result is a dank work of hypnotic beauty. liz’s voice is the first thing we hear, but after it drops out, it doesn’t come back for a good 20 minutes. the way the layers of her dense sound fold into one another is what makes those 20 minutes so striking.   

    andy stott – it should be us

    spotify

    andy is a fucking mad man. dude just casually drops this nearly 50-minute ep (?) out of the blue while simultaneously teasing a full length due sometime this year. and then there’s the music: shit will twist your melon, man! he takes club music, picks it apart, drags all the pieces through the mud, then puts it back together all wrong. but it works! and can still be incredibly fun! the song “promises” sinks its hooks into you with its drum beat that just can’t quite fit into time…until it finally does and the track kicks into gear properly. the feeling of resolution and propulsion in that moment is hugely gratifying.

    angel olsen – all mirrors

    bandcamp /// spotify

    i honestly don’t think there’s anything i can say about this record that hasn’t been said by a lot of other people. i will say though that i STILL don’t feel like i’ve truly sunk my teeth into this record, but the show i saw of her’s in royal oak in november completely sealed the deal for me. i’m looking forward to returning to this one when i’m ready!

    jefre cantu-ledesma – tracing back the radiance

    bandcamp /// spotify

    this past summer, i drove out to grand haven on a whim. i was feelin a lil bummed and lonesome and a little bit sorry for myself. that classic summertime sadness. i laid on my back next to the little channel that all the boats go in and out of and watched couples and families as they passed by. i played this record while out there that day and it kinda pinned that feeling to my chest for good. this record finds jefre lifting off the heavy layer of grime and distortion that contributed to the charm of past records. in its place is lush, lilting, more traditional instrumentation. on the 21-minute “palace of time,” fragments of piano seem to reflect as if in a hall of mirrors, as a skittering brushed snare drum occasionally passes through the mix like tumbleweed. this record is definitely a highlight in jefre’s remarkably consistent discography. 

    a winged victory for the sullen – the undivided five

    bandcamp /// spotify

    in the fall of 2013, i heard a winged victory for the sullen’s debut self-titled album for the first time. i was just about to embark on a six week long tour when i first heard it and i was immediately taken with its grace, beauty and melancholy. i started listening to it obsessively while on tour because it offered me this beautiful sense of solace. for the entire 45 minute runtime, i was transported somewhere much more tranquil than a shitty, smelly van in the middle of nowhere. the undivided five is the first album of original, non-commissioned work since their debut and it feels like a very natural progression from that record. their sound has gotten bigger, more complex and slightly less predictable, but still possesses the power to transport you somewhere tranquil and beguiling. 

    leafar legov – never ending beginnings

    side a /// side b

    i decided to add this one at the very last minute because i found that i kept coming back to it. never ending beginnings is a cassette release from the great electronic musician, leafar legov. while legov’s work has always existed somewhere between danceable and drifting, never ending beginnings finds legov venturing a little closer to the drifting side of things. clouds of weightless synth chords float by slowly, gradually shifting shape and flowing into one another. it’s 10-minutes into side a when we finally hear a beat for the first time, though it’s function here is less propulsive and driving than it is a glue that helps hold some of these tracks together. never ending beginnings is the type of record you put on and get lost in for its entire length, as the line between the ending and beginning of these compositions is consistently obscured. this one helped me not lose my shit while grocery shopping stoned.

    lol beslutning – destina & destine 

    spotify

    i just heard this record for the first time last night and was so taken with it that i feel like i have to include it. information about lol beslutning is frustratingly sparse. it seems they hail from copenhagen, denmark, and share members with/is born from the ashes of the danish punk band, synd og skams. destina and destine is described by their label as “a mythical teenage opera,” which seems to be accurate, though i don’t understand danish so i don’t know what these songs are about. if this is indeed an opera, it’s not the kind you can expect to see played out in concert halls: lol beslutning’s approach is far more diy and homemade than anything you’re likely to encounter in any space like that. this is fragile, beautiful, experimental music, driven by the power of harmony and vulnerability. an incredibly hard to describe record that i’m excited to continue to explore. listen to the very catchy, gorgeous piece “choices” to get a good idea of what you’re in for. 


    i suppose that’s all for now. hopefully more later now that i’ve finally got this blog in a consistently stable state.

  • 12.20.19

    wow.

    it has been so long since i last posted. a lot has changed, a lot has stayed the same. in a lot of ways, i feel like i have just closed a chapter of my life and am just beginning a new one.

    last week monday, i completed my finals for school. i ended up with an A in my bio lecture, B+ in bio lab, A in my anatomy I lab and a C in my anatomy I lecture. so i ended up with an A overall in bio and a B- in anatomy. not bad; i’ll take it. i’m not terribly stoked on my anatomy I lecture grade being so low. i have the same prof next semester for anatomy II and will have to work harder at finding an effective way to study for the course. until then, i’m glad as hell to be on break!

    one of the more exciting things that has happened recently is that i put together a diy monome norns a couple months ago, which has had a profound impact on my creative process and has really expanded what i’m capable of doing with my current music set up. the norns is a really hard to describe digital musical instrument. at it’s core, it is a sound computer that is capable of generating sound and processing incoming audio. at any point in time, norns can be a looper, a sequencer, a sampler, a multi-fx processor, a digital four-track cassette recorder, and much more. it’s a machine that has confused and fascinated me since i first discovered it several years ago, but the $800 price tag was enough to keep me away.

    enter one steven noreyko. steven is a musician, photographer, programmer, and an electronics tinkerer. in his spare time, steven created the fates dac board, which uses a raspberry pi as it’s core. the fates is essentially a monome norns that you can build yourself at home, which is exactly what i did! below are some pictures of the build process.

    gettin’ everything ready
    close up of pcb for all da freakz
    audio i/o soldered (nice joints imo) as well as some capacitors
    all thru-hole stuff done; headers for display and rpi in place
    display attached! pi attached! case spacers in place!
    you can see how display attaches via pins/header. soldering all 20 pins was meditative.
    done 🙂

    honestly powering this thing up for the first time and seeing the boot-up animation and hearing the startup sound was one of the most exciting and affirming moments. i got a huge grin on my face and immediately started menu diving, checking everything out. i lost a few hours fumbling through different scripts and trying to wrap my head around everything. frankly, i bounced off the thing pretty hard and realized i had no clue what the fuck i was doing.

    i decided to approach it one script at a time. a script is a program that has a specific set of functions; think about it like an app, if that’s helpful. each script can do certain things, but you can only use one script at a time. their functions vary: loopers, delays, reverbs, drone synth, sequencers (including kinetic and euclidean!), poly synths, mono synths, melody generators…the list goes on. the raspberry pi 4 proves to be a capable audio processing workhorse in this particular application, and bugs are easy to squash.

    deets for the freakz: norns can be thought of as a software ecosystem with a number of complete parts that function together. all audio is generated/processed by supercollider. supercollider is a music-focused coding language that can be used to do damn near anything related to music creation or audio processing. the supercollider scripts are controlled by lua scripts, which handles all the interfacing (encoders, buttons, display). audio routing is handled by crone, an engine created by monome. lua interpretation is handled by matron, again developed by monome. below is a screenshot of maiden, which is the browser based ui client.

    script library management is handled through maiden, including updates pulled from github!

    getting the norns and implementing it into my setup has been pretty transformative for me from a creative standpoint. it’s been super inspirational and has helped me get back into the habit of playing music daily. i’ve been occasionally recording my little jams when i stumble upon something worth saving. i decided to throw them up onto soundcloud for fun and to share. it’s important to note that these are like really rough recordings and the performances are totally improvised, so don’t expect greatness.

    this is all i have for now. i have lots more things to talk about, but it seems wise to spread it over a couple posts as opposed to doing one mega post.

    we’re gonna finish the fiona dickinson record today. will report back how that ends up going!

    i hope you all are well and have a beautiful holiday.

  • 9.14.19

    fall 2019 mix

    about 4 or 5 years ago, my best friend dan and i started exchanging mixes at the beginning of each season. there’s definitely been some debate about when/why/how the whole thing began, but dan feels pretty certain that it was suggested over beers at harmony. i trust his memory more than my own. all i know is that at some point, i started making him cassette mixtapes to listen to in his car cuz he only had a tape player at the time.

    as the years have gone on, the format has changed from cassettes to cd’s to streaming. it’s kind of funny to think about how much of a constant this little exchange has been in my life, how we’ve somehow managed to keep it going all these years despite how much change we’ve both endured in our personal lives. i’ve missed our loose deadlines pretty consistently because of shit going on in my life, and i’m pretty sure there were a few times where i just failed completely to deliver. regardless, we’ve soldiered on and i think for the first time ever, i’ve managed to complete and hand off my mix sooner than dan has.

    i started putting this mix together only a few days after i handed off my summer 2019 mix. i was listening to “irresistible” by deafheaven on an unseasonably cool day and was unexpectedly hit with a heavy dose of longing and wistfulness, a slightly heartbreaking nostalgia for the summer of 2013 when sunbather came out and i was in my first serious adult relationship and things were fun and easygoing for me. listening to that song even then always made me feel some type of way that is kinda hard to put my finger on. it’s unabashedly sentimental and kinda melancholy. in other words, it’s extremely my shit.

    it reminded me of the title of a john adams piece titled “naïve and sentimental music”. the title of adams’s symphony is a reference to an essay published in 1795 by friedrich schiller, titled “on naïve and sentimental poetry.” in this context, “naïve” and “sentimental” aren’t meant in the way we understand them in 2019. here they are meant to represent two opposing types of motivation for which an artist may create work: “naïve” meaning an artist creates solely for the sake of creation, while “sentimental” refers to an artist creating work that demonstrates a consciousness of other factors, such as the work’s place in art history or in reference to the artist’s other works.

    while the essay by schiller definitely serves a purpose and is a valuable examination of artistic motivation, i prefer to interpret the title of adams’s symphony in a modern way. i think “irresistible” is a great example of naïve and sentimental music: naïve in it’s hopefulness and sorrow, and in it’s sentimentality, or it’s ability to conjure a sense of longing and nostalgia. so basically this kinda sad song led me to consciously misinterpret one artist’s interpretation of another artist’s interpretation of artistic motivation. and it was with that misinterpretation in mind that i began seeking music that fit that description, and this mix is a small collection of what i found.

    a still from ingmar bergman’s autumn sonata

    click here to reveal spotify playlist and apple music playlist.

    hope you enjoy it.

  • 9.12.19

    school, sleep, television

    man, it has been too long since i wrote here.

    life has been kind of insane since i last wrote. i started my second semester of school, have continued working on the fiona dickinson record, worked 32 hrs a week, went on some adventures, took some naps, watched some tv and tried to just make it through every day.

    this semester, i’m taking anatomy and physiology I and intro to cells, molecules and genes, which is basically an intro biology class. both classes have a 90-minute lecture that meets twice weekly, as well has a three hour lab that meets once a week. so that’s 12 hours of school each week, plus whatever studying i do outside of class, which i have been doing almost daily since i started. the amount of material we’re covering in both classes this semester is kind of insane. i took an anatomy class in the summer of 2012, so i have like a very faint memory of some of the anatomy material, but it might as well be all new information at this point cuz i can’t remember shit and had no reason to use any of the information i learned during that 6 week course.

    so far, school has been really good. i’ve been good about staying on top of my studying and am actually a little bit ahead. i really need to try to keep that pace going because of how much material we’re going to be covering. fortunately a lot of this stuff is actually super interesting. learning about the structure of cells and what each part of the cell does has been mind-blowing. i’m sure i learned some of this shit in high school, but learning it again as an old man has been really cool. the human body is insane. evolution is insane. the fact that life exists at all is insane.

    in my anatomy lab, we’re going to be working with cadavers. initially i was pretty nervous about it. after just the first two weeks of class, that nervousness has given away to excitement and intrigue. let me at those dead ass bodies, i wanna see ’em.

    before school started, i made something of a mad dash to do some fun things before my life got taken over by classes, homework and work-work. here’s some visual proof i did some things.

    ben davey had dan and i on the guest list to play some songs from our seasonal mix exchange.
    beach house @ 20 monroe 8.8.19
    algae at the end of the pier in grand haven
    i kitty sitted cooper for fi and garrett.
    this guy lives right outside the door i pass through to get into my house
    i went to detroit to see my friend’s dom and jamie get married
    dom was my best buddy in college. legitimately one of the absolute greatest people i’ve ever met.

    that’s all for now. maybe more soon when i brain is less mushy.

  • 7.31.19

    thoughts on sobriety

    25-Jul-2019 9:45:39 AM

    one of the primary motivations for starting this blog was to speak a little bit about my journey in sobriety. i particularly wanted to share what my experience has been like as a sober performing musician, because i feel like it’s somewhat of a unique position and i haven’t really found any stories out there that i felt like have reflected the truth found in my own experience. the 26th marks 3 years to the day since i quit drinking, which feels like kind of the perfect occasion for attempting to get some of my thoughts down about what sobriety has been like for me up to this point.


    i feel like it makes the most sense to attempt to summarize my drinking career to the best of my ability, as much for my own benefit as for anyone who might be reading this.

    i started drinking when i was 17. it was the summer time and i will never forget the euphoria and complete lack of coordination i experienced when i drank for the first time. i was with some close friends of mine and we were at a friend’s house. he lived with his dad and sister, and i’m pretty sure they were out of town or something. we drank tequila and it tasted vile (what irony that tequila would become my liquor of choice at the end of my drinking days.) i don’t remember much other than rolling around on the floor and laughing a lot. i couldn’t walk up or down stairs for shit. i might’ve gotten sick at some point, i don’t remember.

    when i first started drinking, it was a pretty rare occasion. the hangovers were completely debilitating then and the thought of suffering through one of those more than like once a month was enough to keep me away from the sauce. i was smoking a lot of weed at the time, and occasionally dabbling with pills, psychedelics, and basically whatever else would come along that wasn’t meth or heroin. nothing too heavy, but i was definitely toeing the line. besides my grades starting to slide a little bit in school and my dad finding a dime bag of weed that had fallen out of my pocket in the garage, i managed to keep my shit together pretty well.

    st patrick’s day 2007. this might’ve been my first college party.

    over the course of 2006 into 2007, when my dad’s health started to decline rapidly and he eventually passed, my drinking became more frequent. somewhere along the line, it became something i did at least once every weekend, if not more. i did and said a lot of dumb shit (that statement pretty much summarizes my drinking career tbh), a lot of which is just incredibly embarrassing to think about now. from professing my unrequited love to female friends of mine, to stealing shit i didn’t even want or need, a lot of idiotic mistakes were made. i eventually had to kind of train myself to NOT do or say stupid shit while i was drunk so that i could avoid that sinking feeling in my stomach that i would wake up to when i immediately knew i had fucked up. that feeling and the crushing hangover headache still weren’t enough to keep me away, though. and it’s not like i just quit doing and saying dumb shit altogether, it just varied wildly in frequency and severity over the years.

    very drunk with some friends in winter of 2007, age 18
    drunk and high on my 19th birthday. cool shirt.

    i continued at this pace right up to age 21. i believe wholeheartedly that i was already an alcoholic before i was even of legal drinking age. the primary aspect of the nature of my drinking that leads me to believe this, is the way i would consistently turn to drinking as an escape. eventually the relief it gave me from my problems (the death of my father, struggles of my siblings, watching my mom date and marry, lack of money, the exacerbation of the deterioration of my own mental health, etc.) was significantly more valuable to me than the potency of my hangovers could dissuade.

    21st birthday

    turning 21 meant bars. bars meant spending money. not having a job meant i exclusively relied upon a credit card that my father had cosigned on with the intention of it being used to help establish some credit. i maxed it out pretty quickly, despite it having a $3500 limit. having no income meant no way to pay my credit card bill. it wasn’t long before it went to collections and i began receiving letters and phone calls. after i graduated college after 5+ years, i moved out and got a job. soon after that, i was served papers and then my wages started to be garnished. this whole ordeal tanked my credit and is something i’m still working to this day to repair.

    drunk at the meanwhile. probably sometime in 2010 or 2011.

    my drinking became more frequent and dangerous after i had moved out. working at a brewery normalized and encouraged my drinking. being broke and sad fueled my drinking, which kept me broke and sad. i had no energy or motivation to get a different job. the ~5 years that i stayed at that job were the heaviest and most dangerous years of my drinking, and is when i feel like i blew past the point of no return with regards to my alcoholism.

    in the summer of 2013, i joined the band stepdad. i wasn’t playing with any bands at that time after my last band, petals rang the bell, fizzled out during 2012. stepdad had a 6 week nationwide tour booked that they needed me to play, so i agreed. what a strange time that was. i drank pretty much every day. i played nearly black out drunk some nights. i think it was during that tour that i first felt the physical symptoms of alcohol withdrawal. it was an incredibly difficult time for me; being away from home for that long, in all new places, with people i had only just met, was just a really tough, alienating experience. alcohol and drunkenness were very familiar and comfortable to me, so i turned to them for solace during that tour. my mantra during that tour was “there’s nothing 2 beers can’t fix.” it never did stop at just 2, though.

    the worst period of my drinking came in the winter of 2013-14. my relationship with my girlfriend of 2 years unraveled, yet i went on living with her for another month or so, sleeping on the couch in the living room of our tiny apartment. during that time, i hit the bottle hard. really hard. at one point, i was so drunk that i fell face first into the sidewalk and scratched my face all up. i did some heinous shit that led to my ex forcing me to leave the apartment and put some of my very close friendships in jeopardy. after she gave me the boot, i stayed in the guest bedroom of one of my coworker’s houses for a month. my drinking stayed at scary dangerous levels during this time. i became close friends with people who were on a similar path of self-destruction. we would go out to different events/bars together and just get completely blotto. i engaged in very impulsive, dangerous behavior that i had never taken part in before. i drove drunk constantly. hell, i got pulled over twice for drunk driving and the police let me go both times, once because their breathalyzer wasn’t working and once just cuz.

    my coworker whom was gracious (and patient) enough to let me stay in her guest bedroom kindly asked that i be on my way after staying there for a month. without any other options, i moved back in with my folks. even though i was pretty fucking far gone with my drinking at that point, i was still able to recognize that maybe it would end up being a restorative experience for me, a chance to dry out a little and try to get my shit together. i drank only slightly less often, and i remember my close friends whom were also heavy drinkers actually expressing concern for me with regards to my behavior and the extent to which i drank around the time i moved back in with my folks. day drinking became my favorite. me and some friends would go out every sunday afternoon and end up drinking well into the night. we called it sunday funday and i think i blacked out almost every single time. i remember sitting in my truck in an arby’s parking lot at like 7pm on a beautiful spring day, the sun still shining and people going about their sunday evening business. i sat in my truck, drunk as a damn lord, trying to work up the courage to walk into this arby’s to order some food. i don’t think i will ever forget that time and just how poignantly sad that experience was. i can remember the way the air felt, the way the sun looked, the music i was listening to. it’s like imprinted in my brain as just a real low moment and i remember feeling so pathetic because i think i had drank alone for the majority of that sunday, just barhopping by myself. i was nervous to walk into my house because i knew i probably couldn’t walk straight and it was only like 7 or 8pm, so i knew my mom and stepdad would still be awake. i don’t know how i did it, but i somehow managed to make it to my room without running into them.

    an actually cute pic of me n my sis before we both went out for the night while i was staying with my parents for a little bit. notice the red marks on my forehead and nose leftover from when i fell face first into the sidewalk as mentioned in this post.

    it was while i was living with my parents for those few months that i started agreeing to join every single band that asked me to play for them. it made sense in my head: i knew i was miserable partially because i wasn’t playing music, so maybe if i was just playing music all the time i would feel better. while it did undoubtedly give my life much more purpose and ended up being a net positive, it also gave me far more handy excuses to drink.

    if you’re not aware of it by now, i’ve gotta tell you something: music and alcohol are inextricable. it’s rare to enjoy one without the other, and attempts made at doing so are awkward at best. i’m sure there are pockets of the diy scene that are able to pull this off with some success, but i feel like the vast majority of live music performances, especially ones that actually fucking pay the musicians, all involve booze. it didn’t really become clear to me until soon after i got sober that being a “performing musician” is synonymous with being an “alcohol salesperson.” your job is to get people to come to the show to pay a cover and to buy drinks so that you can get paid. it’s really that simple. shows that don’t allow drinking but still aim to be lucrative gigs have to charge significantly more for tickets, and even then promoters/venue owners/whatever are missing out on an opportunity to make significantly more money. places that can afford to do this either a.) aren’t trying to make money in the first place and are staffed by volunteers b.) also host shows that are 21+ and serve booze or c.) have dumb amounts of money to throw around. so you’re basically looking at community spaces and colleges/universities as places that consistently host dry shows. the only college in grand rapids that booked good shows was calvin, but they recently cut funding to their student activities office which brought some of the best national talent into the city. so that one’s out. so that leaves us with the house show scene and the daac, which has yet to reopen. i feel like “dry spaces” like the daac are really awesome establishments that provide new talent a chance to perform for people, but my experiences with places like that have been frustrating for several reasons. one being that the pa is (usually) shit. and two, no one comes to the damn shows cuz they can’t drink! and we all know that even if a house show is dry, people will still sneak in booze somehow. like how do you actually police that.

    while my drinking career hit a pretty steady, somewhat functional stride in 2014 up until i called it quits in 2016, it was during this period of time that my social life became pretty much completely centered around alcohol, even more so than it had been previously. i had band practices several nights a week, which always involved drinking before and/or during and/or after each practice session. i had shows several times a month, which were always occasions where i got very, very drunk. and then there was all the normal shit: birthdays, weddings, attending shows, house parties, vinyl nights, dance parties, old friends coming into town, bad days, good days, shit even it just being sunny outside was a reason to drink. while i may not have drank every single night of the week during those couple years, i was most definitely wishing that i was drinking on those few off days that i had every week and was quite miserable and subdued when i had to abstain.

    me n my sis at the meanwhile sometime in 2015 or 16, looking like an absolute wreck imo.

    there’s one particular time that i can recall that really highlighted to me how much alcohol had consumed me. a girlfriend i had at the time booked us a hotel in chicago for a long weekend during valentine’s day of that year. she had a ton of things planned for us to do, including a beautiful, fancy dinner aboard a large boat that cruised out into lake michigan from navy pier. i remember the entire time we were there, feeling like i had to get drunk every night or else, in my mind, it would’ve been a waste. i drank quickly and sometimes stealthily during that weekend, as my girlfriend was quite a long ways ahead of me in recognizing my alcoholism and wasn’t afraid of calling me on it. how fucking unfortunate that she would go to such great lengths to plan this lovely trip for us to get away and do something special together, only for me to spend the whole time getting as drunk as i possibly could without starting an argument.

    thinking back on that trip, as well as several others that we had taken during our relationship where my behavior followed an identical pattern, i am filled with an incredible amount of embarrassment and shame. how unfair and disgusting i acted. how awful that i could treat someone that way after they had tried so hard to provide us with fun, exciting opportunities and adventures together. while that relationship was certainly not without it’s faults even unrelated to my drinking, there was definitely nothing she had done that would justify how selfish and destructive i was during the time that we were together. fortunately for us both, she dumped my sorry alcoholic ass and told it to me straight up: she was leaving because i had consistently prioritized alcohol over her and our relationship. she wasn’t wrong and leaving me was the best possible thing she could’ve done for herself and for me.

    the loss of that relationship was what led to me finally reflecting on my life and examining my relationship with alcohol in an honest way. i think that was the first time that it was really crystal clear and impossible to ignore that i was in fact an alcoholic. insanely enough, that /still/ didn’t lead to me stopping right away. i still drank heavily for another month and while i was a little bit smarter about it (i took ubers instead of driving, i didn’t act completely/ impulsively and destructively), i still didn’t really have any intention of stopping for good just yet.

    right after that break up, i decided it was time to get myself back into therapy for the first time in 10 years or so. i had e-mailed a local therapist i found on psychology today’s website and told her my financial situation. she put me in touch with another therapist who was just starting out and was willing to work with me on payment (fun fact: that first therapist i e-mailed ended up becoming my therapist later on and i have been seeing her ever since. she is incredible and has been completely instrumental in my recovery!) i started seeing her weekly and basically pouring out everything i possibly could onto this poor woman in hopes that lightening the load i’d carried for so long might offer me some relief. she made it very clear to me from the first appointment that i did have a drinking problem and while she didn’t force me to quit, she definitely encouraged it. after building up a rapport with her, i felt a kind of obligation to at least try giving up alcohol. i remember the night i said was going to be my last time drinking. i told a close friend of mine who worked in the industry and i proceeded to get completely obliterated. he had to drive me home because i kept falling over. i was walking into my house and tripped going up a flight of 3 steps and very nearly landed on my face. what a mess.

    after that night, i decided to stick to my word and go as long as i could without drinking. i made it two weeks, which was the longest i had abstained in probably like 10+ years. i relapsed one time on a friend’s birthday, when i basically just said “fuck it” and drank all day with my friends. i remember sitting alone on my front steps, drinking a heineken at like 3 am. i fucking hate heineken. i was drinking it and thinking about the day, how i had drank for over 12 hours and was STILL drinking. i was drinking this gross ass beer all alone after drinking all day. that is not normal. it was at that time that i decided that yeah, i am just completely incapable of having anything even resembling a healthy relationship with alcohol and that i had to just pack it in indefinitely.

    i remember feeling terrified by the thought of never drinking again. it just seemed way too extreme. so i gave myself some like bullshit predetermined length of time, i think 6 months, and told myself that when that time was up, i would reassess. i knew alcohol just was not something i could have in my life right then. as time went on and i started to see improvements in virtually every aspect of my life, that set time of 6 months quickly flew out the window and i knew this had to be a forever thing.


    the first couple weeks of sobriety were awful. just really, really harrowing. i also started taking zoloft and wellbutrin to treat the underlying depression and anxiety that i had been drinking away for the past god knows how long. the first couple weeks of antidepressants is also really awful. i remember feeling at the time like i had absolutely no control over my emotions. i would be perfectly fine one moment and the next i would be completely suicidal. i also remember feeling this constant undercurrent of anger. if you know me at all, you know that i am not an angry person whatsoever, so it was very strange to be feeling that so strongly. i remember feeling like i was being ripped apart from the inside out.

    i think the first big thing i noticed was just the absence of hangovers and how much free time i now had to fill since i wasn’t drinking and nursing hangovers. the free time thing was legitimately really tough at first! weekends were spent alone now and i missed a lot of events because i just did not feel confident enough in my sobriety to make it out to those things. i had started running around that time, and that was like a huge self esteem boost. i was feeling good phsyically and beginning to become more stable emotionally, but i was just really alone. i was the only sober person i knew at the time. and that’s a really lonely place to be.

    the biggest hurdle that i had to overcome during those very young days of my sobriety was being able to play shows sober. it was something i had so much anxiety around. i remember talking with my therapist at the time about what i could do at the show instead of drink, and trying to come up with a game plan with her about how i would go without boozing during the first couple shows i played sober. it was seriously hard as hell.

    as a musician, you’re expected to arrive at the venue several hours before doors open to load in and soundcheck. after arriving, loading in and getting soundchecked, there is a whole lot of waiting around to play. you will likely be waiting several hours to play if you are not the opener, and only slightly less than that if you are opening. during those hours after soundcheck, i would usually start drinking. i’d keep it somewhat modest so that i could still play competently, but would begin drinking right after soundcheck all the way until the lights came up at the end of the show. then there’d inevitably be an afterparty at someone’s house where we’d drink until 4 or 5 in the morning. it’s just kinda what you do as a musician, or so i told myself, and it was my favorite thing at the time. suddenly i was a person that didn’t do that. i didn’t do any of that. i had to figure something else out. i tried sipping n/a beer, but it was disgusting and frankly quite triggering and also a total waste of empty carbs. i tried drinking tonic water and lime juice. i tried just drinking water. i tried sitting in the green room until we played. i tried a lot of different things and all of them were fucking hard and shitty and just not fun at all. it was actually really miserable! having to sit through bands you don’t care about while you’re stone sober is legitimately irritating. having to make small talk with a bunch of people whom you haven’t seen in awhile that came out to the show while you’re stone sober is fucking rough, especially if you have any kind of anxiety disorder. feeling like you’re just stuck in this loud ass venue while everyone around you is getting progressively more fucked up and you can’t leave because you’re going on stage soon is like…damn near torturous, especially for someone so early in their recovery!

    it took lots of trial and error, but the only way i’ve found to play shows and not completely lose my cool is to go to load in and soundcheck, go home right after, do stuff around the house that i would normally do, leave my house late enough that i would arrive within 30 minutes of our slot and bring a bunch of la croix. after playing, immediately break down and pack up all of my gear, load it out into my car, say bye to at least one of my bandmates so they know i’m leaving, and then go home and get ready for bed. there have been times where i have legit made it into bed like 20 minutes after getting off the stage and it’s fucking beautiful. granted, this only works if the shows are here in grand rapids. if they’re out of town shows, things are much more difficult and i still don’t really have a rock solid approach for that. also: major props to team scheme at the pyramid scheme for always stocking some la croix in the green room whenever one of my bands is playing a show there. that is seriously the coolest and most thoughtful thing.

    it’s been three years now that i’ve been sober and i think the thing i still struggle with the most is how sobriety has changed my relationship with music and with my friends. playing shows used to be my favorite thing in the world. i would look forward to them for weeks, sometimes months, and would always be so excited to see all my friends at the show, to play for everyone, and then get to just hang and party with everyone after. it was such a blast for me and those were some of the most fun nights of my life. now playing shows feels almost like a chore! it’s really very strange and i have been hoping all of this time that i’ve been sober that it would become fun again but it just isn’t right now. i look forward to the show up until the day of, then suddenly i’m like, “man i’d honestly just rather stay home and play video games” or whatever. it sucks. there are definitely exceptions, and i think the fact that playing shows has become so unpleasant for me has really led me to be more discerning about what types of shows i agree to play. i don’t think i should ever have to play mulligan’s or rocky’s for the rest of my fucking life. same goes for basically any bar like that. i did my time, i don’t have to do it anymore. like…my bands have all outgrown that. i’m done with that shit.

    on the flip side, and this is only like a very recent development that occured within the past 6 months or so, i feel like my sobriety has led me to further explore music making on my own, particularly with hardware instead of strictly on a computer. in doing so, i have created kind of my own process and really found what things i like and what i don’t like, and have been slowly acquiring more gear to augment my vision. as i’ve been doing that, i’ve been working on incorporating it into all of the bands that i play in. it’s been kind of a slow and tricky process, but it feels like it’s becoming a little more established and like i’ve gotten more proficient with the equipment that i have. i’m now able to make a completely different sonic contribution to these projects that i have been apart of for years now and it feels really cool and rewarding. i love playing drums and i always will; it’s the most fun shit ever. but being able to contribue melodic and purely sonic elements to my bands has been such a cool and weirdly personal experience. each time it’s like i’m exposing this kind of weird, niche thing that i nerd out over all the time when i’m alone, and it still feels pretty vulnerable to share some of the things that i have come up with on my own. however, in opening up this part of myself and working it into the bands i play in, i have felt a slight rejuvination in how i view playing live shows. i’ve made it more interesting and challenging for myself and i think i’ve been slowly putting more on the line, which has made playing with my bands a little more interesting and appealing.

    the weird part about sobriety is that you don’t just reach a certain point and it’s fine. it definitely does get easier as time goes on, but it never becomes completely easy per se. cravings still crop up regularly, i still romanticize my days of abuse, friendships that once centered around alcohol are still difficult to navigate, i still wrestle with leftover guilt and regret, i still struggle with social situations and often opt for isolation instead of putting myself in places that might be trigger my anxiety, and i still possess all the same thought patterns that fueled my drinking habits to begin with. after the initial honeymoon phase is over and you’ve really settled into your sobriety as a new way of life is when the real work begins, at least in my experience. that warm glow of pride, new found health and stability eventually fade and you’re presented with the kind of dull reality of your new life. it’s a strange thing. sobriety is just like many other aspects of life: it’s in a constant state of flux. it’s constantly evolving and taking on different shapes and manifesting itself in sometimes strange and uncomfortable ways within your life, ways that you likely never expected when you first vowed to live life in a new way. it’s true that everything becomes brighter, more beautiful and more profound. but it also becomes harder as you’re forced to cope with the harsh realities of everyday life without the aid of this wonderful, terrible substance you’ve come to rely on for so long.

    28-Jul-2019 8:06:20 AM

    i know this post has really bounced all over the place, and i honestly never intended for it to become as long as it has. but the deeper i plundered into my past, the more i felt like i had to share or uncover. i definitely plan on speaking more on here about my experience as a sober person and in many ways i feel like this post completely failed at doing what i had initially intended for it to do. but i also feel like it has laid the groundwork necessary for future observations i might hope to make on this new outlet i have created.

    i don’t anticipate many posts on here being as deeply personal as this one, so thank you for sticking this one out with me if you’ve decided to read this whole post. i’m trying really hard to keep in mind that this is my space to share whatever i want about my life and to not overthink what people’s expectations or reactions may be with regard to what i share on here. feeling like i wasn’t completely able to share of myself in a way that felt true was what led me to creating this blog in the first place, so i’m trying really hard to keep that at the forefront of my mind.

    if anything i said especially resonated with you or you would like to speak to me further about sobriety, don’t be scared to give me a shout at the e-mail address i’ve made available by clicking the “contact” link at the top left of this page. i’d be happy to talk with people about sobriety. if sobriety is something you’ve considered and you’re having hangups about committing, definitely reach out and we can bounce ideas off of each other. as difficult as it may be, it is absolutely worth all of the struggle and potential growing pains. it is virtually impossible for me to imagine myself successfully living the life i have created over the past 3 years by any other means. i finally feel like i’m (mostly) on top of everything instead of buried deep underneath it all. if you’re bored of surviving and want to start living, give sobriety a shot. all you really have to lose is missing out on some shit hangovers and some nights at the bar where literally the exact same shit happens every single night.

  • 7.22.19

    what the hell

    20-Jul-2019 10:38:45 AM

    man, again…real strange past couple days. let’s start with the good stuff.

    dan, fiona and i were back in the studio this past tuesday night to do some more tracking. i showed up a little bit later than everyone else cuz i needed a nap after work. when i arrived, dan had just finished trying out some lap steel stuff for “29,” and fiona and matt were setting up fi’s lever harp. after figuring out how best to mic the thing, fiona began tracking some different takes for an intro track.

    this thing sounds gorgeous. fiona put down two initial takes, one with a real steady meter and one that was a little less structured, but still with a driving arpeggio-type progression pushing it forward. i suggested she try playing it even looser and expressively, taking advantage of the fact that it had no real strict meter and to add some feeling to it. she tried it several different ways, playing in a way that was more dynamic, emotive and playful. just as we were about to start a take, we heard the whistle of a train approaching. matt sighed and we all kinda shrugged and said “well, maybe it’ll be perfect.” fiona ended up nailing the take, just a really gorgeous, evocative performance on the harp. really moving and hypnotic. the train’s whistle seemed to sound in response to fiona’s playing. i don’t even know if the mics picked up the passing train, but it was just one of those cool, magical moments that only happen every so often. i’m excited to develop this intro track a little further.

    one of our other goals for the day was to work on the beginning of “say it right.” when we play the song live, i do some finger drumming on the digitakt to help get the band in time and to create a kind of transition. it usually ends up sounding pretty cool and it’s something we landed on without much planning or talking about it. fiona always builds this little guitar drone during that live transition and will let it run throughout the song. we decided the recorded version really needed that little intro, with the finger drumming and fiona’s drone. so, we took a few minutes to bash out the little digitakt part and then fiona spent some time building a really lovely guitar and vocal drone to run throughout the song. oh my god, it sounds so nice. it adds this really subtle melancholy to the song that i just love so, so much. i feel like it really takes it to a whole new level. fiona described it as being like adding a subtle mint garnish to a cocktail: it’s like adding a very small element to a mixture that changes how the overall thing is perceived by the senses. it’s so cool.

    the night before going into the studio, dan, fiona and i met up at dan’s house to share the ideas that we all had for overdubs and to just make sure there wasn’t going to be a whole lot of overlap with the parts we were all imagining. it was a really fun little workshop that we had in dan’s den. sweaty as hell, but really productive and fun. i shared with them some parts i had written for “say it right” on mellotron and organ and they both really enjoyed them, which felt really, really nice. to be honest, though, after fiona tracked that gorgeous underlying drone for that song, i’m not entirely sure the song needs anymore additional melodic content. i guess we’ll have to see how all of that ends up working together.

    in my free time, i’ve been trying to put together some textures for “old body.” i’ve been super into like twinkly, pitch-shifted granular stuff, so i’m trying to make something along the lines of that. something that’s generative and isn’t tied to a tempo or a noticable pattern. for the planetarium show that we played back in the winter, i came up with this generative pattern on the digitakt that was based on samples of a dx7 celeste tone, all the samples tuned to different notes within the song’s key. i’ve been trying to use the same pattern but run through different effects in ableton, but i’m struggling with it. i might abandon that idea and try something else because i just feel like i’m not getting the vibe that i’m hearing in my head.

    22-Jul-2019 8:50:06 PM

    i was writing this post and put it away for awhile cuz i was at work and hadn’t been able to come back to it until now. as luck would have it, i finally landed on a combination of sound sources and processing chains that i really, really like for “old body” and i’m super excited about it. i told fiona today that it sounds like being underwater and looking up at the rays of sunshine coming down through the water. i’m excited to work more with fiona on developing it. i have like two more little ideas for it that i’m gonna try out and see what she thinks. hopefully she enjoys it!

    i’m having a hard time remembering where this post was leading me, considering i had several days away from it and my train of thought was interrupted. i think i was going to mention how this past friday, i passed one of my kidney stones. it came out painlessly at like 8:30 in the morning. i was at home cuz i got cut from work for the day, thank god.

    earlier that morning, i had dropped my car off at a mechainc to get my brakes looked at and fixed. they called me like a couple hours after i passed my stone and told me it would be $2,300 to fix my brakes and take care of some other things on my car. i was immediately in shock. i told the lady that i wasn’t expecting it to be that much, and that i had like $600 that i was able to throw at the repairs. she said that if they did the bare minimum, it would be $1,600. so i got off the phone and panicked and felt sad for an hour. fortunately my mom agreed to lend me some money to cover the remainder of the cost of repairs that i couldn’t afford. i feel super fortunate and grateful that she agreed to help me out, but i also couldn’t help feeling this like overwhelming sense of sadness and guilt about being 31 and having to ask my mom for help. it fucking sucks. y’know, for as much as i love to complain about my job and tell people insane stories about things that happen there, i really do love it. i think my job is hilarious and it’s given me some unique skills and i feel like it’s weird and challenging enough to never really get boring. but fuckin’ a, it sucks not making enough money to build myself a safety net for things like car repairs and shit. i’m like just scraping by as it is, like just barely having enough money to get me paycheck to paycheck. it sucks that i’ve been living like this for so long, like i don’t even know any different and i like fantasize about being able to afford really basic shit without feeling like an intense amount of insecurity and worry about digging myself into a financial rut.

    on top of the car stuff, liv got really sick and was bedridden for several days. she’s on like day 5 of this stomach flu and it’s just been really crummy to see her suffering so much with it. we went to the med center on friday night and they weren’t a ton of help. i’m hoping that she will start feeling significantly better here soon. 🙁

    fortunately i got my car back today after not having it for the weekend. it felt really good to get in it and have the brakes working just as they should. it felt like a whole new car for a minute! so at least i’m back on the road and making some headway on some things for this fiona record. i’ve been listening to the rough mixes a lot and it sounds so great. i already feel so proud of it and we still have several days of tracking left! i can’t wait to see how it all comes together. i think people are gonna really enjoy it.

  • 7.14.19

    Congas, Kidney Stones

    & DSP

    man, what a strange few days.

    on thursday night, dan, fiona and i went back into the studio for a little while to get some more tracking done. they did a bunch of acoustic guitar before i arrived, and fiona knocked out vocals on a couple tracks that she wasn’t able to get to last time. it was really interesting witnessing the way dan and fiona work together. it was honestly really admirable the way they were able to communicate their visions to one another and the way they were able to offer constructive criticism and genuine encouragement to each other. it was just really cool to witness and made me feel really grateful in that moment to have them as friends and bandmates.

    after fiona finished up the few vocal tracks she had left, i stepped in to knock out some auxiliary percussion stuff that i wanted to include. i did tambourine for a bunch of songs (i am a huge stan for tambourine) and did a little bit of shaker. after that, we set up some congas that fiona brought to execute this nutty idea i had for part of “danny’s dream.”

    there’s this little breakdown part in “danny’s dream” where i’m just playing kick and snare, and doing a lil shaker. listening to the super early rough mix of the song, i kept hearing congas in my head during that part. like the kind of congas that are in a bunch of madchester shit like the happy mondays and primal scream. matt and fiona were good sports about it and let me bring my weird vision to life.

    beforehand i went outside to smoke a cig and listened to the rough mix of “danny’s dream” on my phone speaker. a rhythm came into my head and i just rolled with it. we tracked it and after fumbling through a few takes, i got a really tight one. matt played it back in the control room with just the congas, shaker and drum kit and fiona started laughing so hard she was in tears. i don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. hearing it back was kinda nuts because it sounded like exactly how it sounded in my head. i danced to it a little bit and was legitimately so stoked on how it sounded. it’s in the song for maybe ten seconds but it just adds this tiny little unexpected funk to the track that fits the vibe of that song really well imo. i’m hoping we can kinda squash the congas with some heavy compression and get them to sit kinda low in the mix. i seriously fucking love how they sound, it’s so sick.

    we finished all of my percussion stuff in an hour and ended exactly at 8pm, which is how late we had booked til with matt. hell yeah.


    flash forward to the next morning at 5am. i wake up like fifteen minutes before my alarm goes off to some pretty excruciating pain in my testicles. i had soreness there for a couple days prior but really thought nothing of it. if you’re a dude, you know that sometimes your shit just hurts and then it goes away. well, the pain i woke up to kept getting worse. and what a familiar pain it was: my first thought was “oh my god this better not be another kidney stone.” the whole ordeal i went through in 2017 was so brutal and unpleasant and just a huge mess and i just did not want to go through that again.

    i go downstairs to use the bathroom and when i pee, my urine is like very dark red. i just go, “god dammit” in the most annoyed voice and contemplated what i needed to do. being the 31 year old man that i am, i called my mom to see what i should do cuz i was just like really frazzled and out of it. she said i should go to the same er i went to last time and get it sorted out. i sighed a bunch and thanked her and got off the phone. i called into work and just said “uh i’m not coming in today, i’m about to go to er for some extreme pain *nervous laughter* heh sorry so yeah” and then got in the shower. i was obviously in pretty intense discomfort and just felt so annoyed and burdened by the whole thing. i took my time getting ready and ordered a lyft. the woman that got me was really nutty and gregarious and frankly the most unhinged driver i’ve ever encountered. it was really surreal having this really loud, outgoing, kind of abrasive woman give me a ride to the emergency room at 6:30 in the morning.

    she dropped me off and i went inside. i had been in this hospital before, but when i walked in, nothing looked familiar and i had to ask how to get to er. once there, the triage nurse that signed me in was right at the end of his night shift, like had literally 10 minutes to go until he was out. dude was loopy from a long, slow night and made really awkward small talk with me about tattoos after i told this dude i was having extreme pain in my nuts and was pissing blood. going from nutty lyft driver to kinda weird triage nurse was a hell of a one-two and made me legitimately concerned for how the rest of this hospital journey was going to go.

    i leaked out a lil :///

    fortunately, the rest of the experience was quick, professional and helpful. the staff was great and the doctor came to see me literally moments after i had gotten to my room. he ordered a ct scan and a urine test. i gave them my very concerning colored whiz and went in and out of the huge donut shaped ct machine and was back in my room. they give me toradol and zofran in my iv. the toradol was a god send and brought my pain from an 8 to like a 3 or 4.

    can u guess that i’m listening to grouper

    the doc looked over my tests and ct scan and told me i had two kidney stones, one on either side, both way up high, like just out of the kidney into the ureter. fortunately he said they were only about 3mm, which is half the size of the one i had in ’17, and that i should be able to pass them at home without going through the invasive (unsuccessful) surgery i went through last time. he prescribed me motrin 600, norco and flomax, and then sent me on my merry way. i walked home from blodgett cuz the weather was gorgeous and i was feeling so much relief after they got my pain under control.

    since then, i’ve just been taking the meds as needed and drinking absurd amounts of apple cider vinegar and lemon juice mixed into water. the mixture is something i drank a ton of last time around and supposedly helps break down the stones in your ureter so they can pass easier. i have no idea if it actually did anything last time but it doesn’t hurt to do it again y’know. at this point, it’s literally just a waiting game until i pass these things. they want me to strain my pee every time i have to go and gave me like a comically small strainer to use, which sends my pee flying in every possible direction as soon as it passes through the dumb thing, which is obviously super sick and like a nice feature to have in a urine strainer.


    in other news…

    as i have been reading more and more about synthesizers and music gear, i’ve found myself going deeper and deeper down kind of a weird rabbit hole. i have gotten to a point now where i am very interested in diy electronic music instruments and computers.

    i’ve become particularly interested in what’s known as dsp, or digital signal processing. in the context of music and audio, it’s pretty simple to think about: basically any digital effect is an example of dsp. there are different ways of going about doing it and there are lots of contemporary programming languages that deal with audio dsp directly. max/msp, supercollider, pure data, and sonic pi are a couple that come to mind.

    i feel like an ultimate goal of mine is to have a designated sound computer that i could use basically as a sort of multi-fx box. i would be able to program my own effects and would use it as an fx send/return on my mixer.

    in an effort to learn more, i checked out a few books from the library and realized i was diving in too deep, far too quickly.

    this is how a filter works. but i’m sure u could tell that just by looking at the equations.

    as a kind of compromise/way to get my feet wet without drowning, i purchased an fv-1 development board from spin semiconductor. the spin fv-1 is a chip that’s designed to carry out dsp processes. it’s most notable use is as a reverb producer. it’s used in a countless number of guitar pedals, including my very favorite, the particle by red panda.

    close up of the dev board. this thing is much smaller than it appears in the photo.

    the really beautiful thing about the development board is that it’s basically a dedicated fv-1 fx processor right out of the box. a eeprom chip is included to store your algorithms, a usb jack is present to transfer your algorithms to the eeprom chip to be read by the fv-1 and can also be used to power the board, it has stereo rca in/out to easily interface with a variety of sound sources, and it has 3 potentiometers soldered on to control the effect parameters and a rotary knob to cycle through the 8 effect slots on the eeprom.

    the other fantastic part about the board is that spin semiconductor, the company that made the chip and dev board, has created their own software programming environment to create your own effects, and it can flash the eeprom directly from the software in a matter of seconds. though to be honest with you, i have virtually no idea what i’m looking at whenever i look at a piece of complete fv-1 code.

    this is a chunk of code from a shimmer verb algorithm, allegedly

    fortunately, yet again, some gentleman who goes by digitallarry online created a javascript-based wrapper for the spin dev software which features a very easy to understand gui. it’s known as spincad designer and features a modular layout very similar to pure data and max.

    finally some fucking words and images that make sense

    i haven’t had a ton of time to fuck around with the board but what i have been able to accomplish with it so far has been really promising. my goal with this chip has been to create some glitch granular delay effects. it’s a sound that i have been really obsessed with lately and i think it’s very “in” right now. there’s a lot of folks online that have created their own algorithms for this thing and have shared them on various forums for anyone to use and develop further. i’ve dumped several onto the eeprom and played with them and they’re really sick and some are unwieldy as hell. occasionally the whole signal will become just a series of beeps, chirps and sustained tones generated by the fv-1. straight up sounds like the chip is about to burst into flames. a lot of the algorithms are glitchy and sound really really dope, though none of them that i have found have been exactly what i’m looking for. i need to sit down and actually develop something in spincad designer that will generate the type of sound i’m looking for.

    fucking around the other night. running a vocal loop i created from the scratch vocal track for the fiona record on the sp-303. send that to mixer and have it’s channel being sent to the fv-1 dev board, then returning back to the mixer on it’s own channel to better control the wet/dry mix. macbook is running the spin semi ide software on windows 7 in virtualbox.

    given the fact that the dev board is tiny and literally just an exposed pcb, i want to create a clear acrylic enclosure for it so that i can safely take it to shows and practice. i’m looking forward to making that my next little crafting project. before that, it’s time to dig into developing some algorithms for this thing! and maybe i’ll pass these damn stones sometime soon.

  • 7.3.19

    Recording with

    Fiona Dickinson pt. 2

    last night, we went back into the studio to record the rest of dan’s main guitar parts for the record, and to retrack some of fiona’s guitar parts.


    shortly after i arrived, it started down pouring outside. the rain and the evening light set the mood perfectly for working on “danny’s lullaby.” dan’s guitar parts sound more like a shimmery farfisa than an actual guitar. really, really gorgeous.

    after he finished up his guitar for that song, he busted out his bass and added a really lovely, springy little lick in the intro and chorus. it sounds real vintage and lynchian as hell. *chef’s kiss*

    after cruising through “danny’s dream,” “danny’s lullaby,” and “just sleep,” the sun came back out before dipping down below the horizon. the light looked really beautiful as it shone on the grand river, just outside the window of the control room at matt’s.

    after dan finished up his main parts, he tracked a tiny little melody for the outro of “children” in one quick take.


    afterwards, the four of us sat around for a bit and talked about some ideas for overdubs and scheduled some more dates to come in and track with matt. which brings us to today…


    03-Jul-2019 3:08:32 PM

    today we started recording fiona’s vocals. i know leading up to today, fiona was pretty nervous about recording her vocals. last night, she made dan and i promise that we wouldn’t watch her while she was recording. dan and i sat in the control room with our backs to fiona who was in the live room.

    she started with “danny’s lullaby” and knocked it out in about 45 minutes. we moved on to “danny’s dream.” after finishing her first run through, we could faintly hear some shouting coming through fiona’s vocal mic. the next moment we heard “get your hands on top of your head” and realized someone was getting arrested outside. we rushed to the window and looked out and saw a cop with his gun drawn, pointing it at some dude out of our line of sight. there was a significant period there where i was worried i was gonna witness some dude getting shot. the cop kept yelling at the guy and telling him to comply. fortunately, what looked like two undercover cops in bulletproof vests got the dude handcuffed. they held him near the unmarked cop car and gave the dude some long swigs of his arizona iced tea. they got the dude in the car and were gone in a matter of minutes. very bizarre experience witnessing that, but i was super relieved that it ended without anyone getting hurt.

    after settling back into our work, fiona finished up “danny’s dream,” adding some really lovely, bright harmonies to the choruses.

    now fiona was on quite a roll. we moved onto my favorite song of ours, “forge.” she did quite a few takes of this one over the course of an hour, eventually tapping out after delivering some really hair-raising performances. despite the oppressive humidity, i still got chills on my arms and legs from hearing her nail the choruses of this one.

    after cruising through “forge,” fiona tackled “old body.” this tune is just her voice and guitar. no help from the band on this one.

    sitting in the control room, listening on headphones to fiona sing this song, was really, really special. i had never been able to clearly hear the lyrics before, and hearing them for the first time was a really emotional experience. fiona did three or four takes of this one and eventually had to stop; she starting tearing up while recording her parts and was starting to lose control over her voice. i think her emotion was definitely captured in the takes that we got and it was lovely being able to hear those get tracked. this song is a stunner and i’m so excited to be able to listen to it again.

    “say it right” was next. this one is driven by a drum beat i programmed on a yamaha rx11. it’s a very bright and relaxed pop song, and is one of my favorites of ours. the recording is sounding really, really nice and fiona managed to knock this one out without very much trouble at all.

    she gave “cabin song” a shot, but fiona was pretty spent from having cruised through 6 full tracks + harmonies. i was super impressed with fiona’s stamina and how much she was able to accomplish in one day. it was really stunning. how she was able to nail such controlled and evocative performances, just one after another, is completely beyond me. true mvp status.

    we booked another couple days with matt for recording. off the top of my head, i know we have a few vocal harmonies to record, as well as the main vocal parts for “cabin song” and “just sleep.” after that, i know we’re going to do some auxiliary percussion and possibly some more guitar. after that, we’ll likely get deep into the weird stuff, which i think will be vital in giving this record a sense of identity, uniformity and just really help make each song something really special. matt has done some very light mixing while we have been tracking stuff, and it’s already starting to sound sooo good. i can’t imagine at this point how it’s going to sound once it’s been properly mixed. i think this record will be a stunner and i just really hope it ends up resonating with people and is able to stand out.

    going forward, i plan on writing more about personal projects and less having this just be a recording journal. but, recording this album is like my main personal project right at this moment, so it only makes sense to me to talk about it and try to document it to the best of my ability.

  • 6.29.19

    Looping State

    of Mind

    i woke up yesterday with some kind of demon cold that has evolved from your ole run o’ the mill sore throat, to like a full blown Cold™. fortunately i was only at work for three hours yesterday before they sent me home cuz they didn’t need me anymore. i sat in front of my a/c and let the sickness do it’s thing while i got this wordpress set up. oh my god it was so frustrating. if something is broken…i’ll probably fix it at some point. bear with me.

    after getting some rest/screaming at my laptop, i went over to fiona’s to record some bits and pieces to use for our record. after waiting forever for logic to analyze all of my plugins, we were able to record some cello, guitar, vocals and kalimba.

    fiona kicked it off with a gorgeous like fifteen minute drone that she built with cello, vocals and guitar. she could probably just release that and people would be stoked. 😂 we’re gonna chop it up and probably use just a small piece on the record.

    she also recorded some really sick cello effects and some lovely, breathy vocal stuff.

    while we were setting up, fiona and i were talking about how we both miss being in the studio, even though it’s only been a week since we were at matt’s. it was really fun getting to work on some stuff with her and i’m looking forward to sitting down and chopping it all up and fucking with it. doing this kind of stuff is like my favorite part of music production and i haven’t really been able to do it for any of the bands i play in. i’m really excited to see what we can turn all this stuff into! i’m also very happy to have the opportunity to shape the sound of this record in a significant way. i’m honored that fi trusts me and i’m feeling less anxious than i did during my previous post.

    gonna rest my poor, sick ass now.

  • 6.22.19

    Recording with

    Fiona Dickinson

    fiona dickinson band entered the studio this past weekend.
    i tracked all of my drum parts on saturday and sunday (6.15-16). it was honestly fucking hard. i realized that i had done a pretty good job of writing parts for these songs that are just a tiny bit outside of my comfort zone. fiona spoke about that yesterday while we were in the studio, about how the most fertile place to be with regards to personal growth is just one step outside of your comfort zone. i think she’s absolutely right. for better or worse, it made recording some of these songs really challenging physically and mentally. i think some of the challenge came from this really bizarre stress/anxiety that i have around the production of this record.

    i noticed that while in the studio, or even while discussing any aspect of recording this record, i feel this really lovely, positive excitement that’s all tied up with this weird tension and anxiety.

    i realized pretty early on when we started talking about recording that we all had pretty specific, yet different ideas about how we want this record to sound, and differing opinions about the processes by which we’ll go about acheiving our ideal results. after having more experience with production, i feel this kind of gross desire to control the mixing/editing process of this album. i think it makes sense considering i have a pretty clear idea in my head of how i want things to sound and feel like i have enough experience to know how to end up at that sound, but it still sucks to feel that way when i know full well that everyone else involved has ideas about how things should sound that are different from my own. not to mention the fact that they are all more than capable of realizing their vision from a technical/production standpoint.

    dan and i talked about this a little bit today over text.

    after our chat, i felt a little more comfortable with the idea of letting go and just trusting everyone involved and the process. i know that all four of us are really, really excited about this album and we all want it to be the best that it can be. i think maybe we just have different ideas when it comes to defining what that ideal end product looks like, and i need to work more on letting go and trusting that the end product will be a great labor of love by all of us. everyone involved is so incredibly talented and just the most lovely people. i have to trust that the culmination of our collective spirits will result in something far more beautiful than anything that any one of us could create on our own.

    last night, dan ripped through 6 songs in about 5 hours. it was impressive to watch him work. he maintained a sense of humor throughout and was willing to compromise with matt and fiona with regard to his tone and the complexity of his parts. i think dan’s parts are brilliant and they’re like the special sauce of these songs. fiona’s songs are beautiful and strong enough to stand on their own two feet without us three bozos, but dan’s guitar parts just add this really pleasant shine to them. ✨

    after four days of recording, we have drums and bass finished, fiona’s main guitar parts for all the songs (i’m p sure,) and dan’s guitar parts for six of nine tunes. so, the tracking of the “meat” of the record is almost done, then we get to move on to the fun, weird shit. fiona and i are going to meet up between now and the first week of july when we re-enter the studio to create some of our own string samples and weird loops and stuff. i know this record is going to be really special and i am so excited to be able to just jam it in my car with the windows down.

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